hi Andrew , sorry i voted negatively but i had a few problems with your poem.
1 - you seem to understand urself well enough to associate solid land and still and moving like a sea where ever it wants, with , urself which u hate.
they are things of nature and therefore beautiful in their own way.
2 - you hate to be you? then be somebody else.... change urself, get fit, put on weight, go travelling, quit ur job , do whatever u want ... life is simple
3 - the last 3 lines are gibberish, even with poetic licence there are limits to what can be considered part of a poem / story .
like u just ran out of stuff to say and went kind of silly and typed any old thing that entered ur head
4 - millions of young people go through similar mindsets at some stage of their teenage lives , then they mature .
" Me " ur poem has been done before and will be done again.... just read lyrics to any Seattle bands that came out in the 90's