Quote (BastardOfWinterfell @ Dec 5 2018 05:24pm)
"Tried reaching out"
LOL, okay bro. You haven't ONCE tried to reach out. We've known each other how long? You have my number, you have my FB, you have my Jsp.
I know it works both ways and not saying I'm innocent but you haven't EVER just messaged me and asked how I'm doing. The fact is losing my mom is the worst thing to ever happen to me and wouldn't wish this on even my worst enemy. Not to mention the 60+ hours a week I'm putting in at work just to provide for me and the wife. Way too much on my plate, but nobody gives a shit or cares. Life is a fucking mess and I probably deserve every bit of it, but I digress.
But yeah keep trying to act like you've put in effort to reach out.
I'll be real for a second and give some sincere advice: consider seeing a therapist. It sounds like you're going through a lot, and in my own unprofessional opinion, it seems like you're suffering from some kind of mental illness. A therapist can diagnose and help you work through whatever you're going through. I know there's this stigma about men needing therapy, but it's honestly all bullshit: there isn't a person alive who can't benefit from talking about whatever it is they're thinking. My mom went off a mental cliff after her brother died. Therapy helped her a lot. I've seen it work.
If you can't afford a therapist (due to insurance or whatever), then consider talking to someone, anyone, even a complete stranger (which carries its own benefits, yet also some obvious limitations). Maybe (
https://www.reddit.com/r/self/ ) or (
https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/ ). Merely writing out all your problems there can be therapeutic just on its own.
If you go around being negative all of the time and putting people down, then you're just going to get treated the same way per the Golden Rule: treat people the way you want to be treated.