Quote (Butter @ 24 Nov 2011 12:43)
This is pretty close to what happened to me myself. Although not exactly...
When I was 15 I went to go "live" with my dad. Which really meant, I went to live alone. I saw him for maybe 2 hours max a week. he'd give me 5-10$ and tell me to go get food for the week (which consisted of ramen). I told myself to stay in school and was perfectly content with my pathetic living situation because of my addiction to gaming. I told myself it was important to stay in school and go to college. I kept myself going to school and everything was going fine. At one point I met this beautiful girl named Kayleigh, lost my virginity to her (I was probably 16 and a half give or take) and was very happy having someone there to live with me. I didn't have many friends because my addiction to gaming made me antisocial and somewhat of an outcast. I ended up getting her pregnant, and we had an abortion. This was to much for me, I always wanted nothing more than a functioning family and here I was letting my life being destroyed.. She really wanted the baby. After the abortion, she started cheating on me and fucked 10 different guys in 6 months. At that point I had enough and told her to go away because she had hurt me to badly. I was then starting my senior year. I'd lay in bed for 3 days or more at a time just crying and unable to move out of bed... my room smelled like rot and decay, my dishes were stacked over the top of the sink... I really just wanted to die. I also changed schools my senior year, which didn't help. I didn't have many friends at my other school but this was completely new territory with a lot of scummy people. I ended up dropping out of highschool and I felt like even more of a loser... but at that point in time I felt I couldn't fall any farther. My daughters mom and I ended up fucking on new years night and she was gone the next morning. 3 months later she came to me and told me she was pregnant. Even though I knew there was 3 chances of who the father was, I had hope. I went and got my GED that week. I got a job and such... she didn't want to be with me anymore and was with this top notch scum bag. She finally got back with me the last month she was pregnant. We were together for another month after my daughter was born, but it wasn't the same. We didn't have sex, didn't sleep in the same bed, and she wouldn't help me with the baby at all. She flipped out one night and told me she hated me and that she wanted to be with her ex-scumbag boyfriend. I ended up walking in the snow from her house in the middle of fucking nowhere to my friends house (which took a few hours)... and then i ended up living there for 6 months. I had my daughter 5 days out of the week because she didn't want to do it. Theres more to it... but... Looking back now I don't regret a thing. My daughter is 2, and I really look at college as nothing but a waste of money anyways. So many people get a diploma and have nothing to show at the end but a bunch of fuckin debt and an $8 per hour job because they can't find any work for what they went to college for. I realize that nowadays, its not about going to college unless you're in medical.
Nowadays, its all about who you know. Come up with a plan and work for it.
I plan on investing in land, and starting a small lumber company for the years i'm waiting for my own trees to grow. the human population is rapidly increasing. Natural resources that we have already badly diminished will be gone soon. If I can get land, thats something that everyone needs that can't be depleted. The more people, the more land is desirable to expand. The more homes needing to be built for all these new people, will need lumber. I'm definitely going in the right direction. As peppy from starfox said.. Never give up! Trust your instincts!
You think you had a hard childhood?
It's got nothing on mine. My mom practically kicked me out the house before I even hit 13, and I never even met my Dad. My only friend till I was 10 was the boy next door who was always beating me up and saying I'm worthless. It's not even like I had a choice, the town had something like 9 people living in it. My entire life was just moving from place to place trying to get along with people who didn't even want me.
You think that's the worst? My only friend was an Asian guy in his thirties or something, who only kept me around because he thought i could help him get laid.
I also got to hang around this weird ginger chick, who found pleasure in constantly hitting me.
But dear god the bane of my existance was this adult couple I could NOT seem to avoid. You know these types of couples who are absolutely sickening, like they wear matching outfits and finish each others sentences? Yeah they were really creepy, and they had a cat, which was at least twice as annoying as they were, I swear this thing would never shut up.
Like I said I ended up moving from town to town getting into fights with other kids my age, even adults from time to time. The only thing that kept me going
was my dream of becoming a pokemon master.