Quote (CarsAndKush @ Aug 2 2014 07:10am)
All that + disability? Hm.
none of it effects my back at all because im not standing for most of it. The nerve damage in my back is to the point where its just constant excruciating pain and nothing seems to help or hurt it more.
the VA gave me a permanent and total disability rating on my back injury and ptsd. Pretty much it will only ever get worse not a lot can be done about it so instead of sitting around doing nothing living off my veterans disability, i keep myself busy with work. My disability alone pays for my cars but id feel to useless and worthless if i didnt try working. So i am, and i do work, a lot. Instead of sulking around for years feeling hopeless about it all as i did the first couple years i was out of the army, i decided to keep myself busy with shit to keep my mind of how shitty the entire situation is. Hence why i have multiple jobs, my youtube channel i run, and my gaming pc building, cars, and firearms hobbies and im constantly doing college courses just to keep busy. Only somone that has severe ptsd would understand the need for the constant flood of shit to do - it preoccupies the mind with so many things that notions of murder, rape, suicide, etc dont have a chance to come forth to consciousness.