Quote (XxYoLoXxSwAgX420 @ Sep 16 2013 01:03am)
so you really arent challenging yourself or caring because... why? you dont want to try and discover you cant do it anyway? is that your fear? you might be able to do it if you step it up.
Uhm, I'll try to be real, cause this actually seemed like a genuinely real question.
We're both aware that ~90% of my games played in LoL is with Akali, there's a reason for this. She's really everything I find funny about this game. Some people gets bored when they play the same champ too much, I get bored when I play champs I dont really like too much. I'm trying to find a champ that I like and that I can enjoy playing like I do when playing Akali.
This (+ my mood IRL, which differs from day to day and differs mattering of what time on day it is) demotivates me, so when I get negative vibes from my teams, I kinda dont feel like playing and cant be arshed to attempt to tryhard carry. However, is my teams acting nice and I'm performing poorly, I'll attempt to do my best since I wanna help them win.
And since I'm lacking a 2nd monitor, I keep tabbing out of the game when I get bored (no matter whether its while pushing a turret, running to lane, being dead, farming, doing jungle, w/e), and I get caught off-guard since I'm not looking at the game etc.
Also, knowing that I have 1½ month to complete this challenge, I dont feel like I need to tryhard at this early stage of the game, which leads to me being more likely to not give a fuck about the games etc.
Also, sometimes I simply fail and make stupid ass mistakes cause I'm not really used to other champs than Akali.