Quote (staysictonkpils @ 12 Jan 2010 21:26)

i dont really like sports, never have probably never will. the only sport i like is MMA.

i get plenty of exercise i jog, and go to the gym, and in the future i would ike to learn many different forms of martial arts "just incase"



can't i have my own personal values on places i will work and were i wont work.

right now its alost impossible for me to get a job, i need car and for me to get a car i need a licence. (witch im trying to get but its hard...)

i am very much so against many establishments that are within our society.

i also want and like to think about this stuff, it gives my life purpose. if i didn't think about this stuff it would make me me into something i would hate, and could not live as.

i dont live for pussy either, i've made a personal oath that i will never become that kind of person. i want to be selfless and live for the greater good. don't get me wrong women are great and all but i will never put pussy before what i have sworn to dedicate my life too.



trust me i'll never get into sports i hate them. i only work out cause its necessary i dont enjoy it but i enjoy the results.

and its not like i'm not confident lol... i respect myself more then any individual i know besides my friend mike me and him are like equals in my eyes.

i just feel so lost is all, i know what i need to do but yet its so hard to try and get it done its very overwhelming, and it stresses me out.

Quote (Architects @ Jan 13 2010 01:30am)

then fight!

Quote (staysictonkpils @ 12 Jan 2010 21:35)

read my edits, and i could never do that. i dont like to fight for fun or for a paycheck thats not me.

i want to do something that makes me happy at the end of the day for work. and ya i know "its  job its not supposed to be fun" but fuck that shit, i dont wana end up like my parents and all the millions of people who say that shit and are completely miserable with there lives. i want to be great i want people to idolize me long after i'm gone. i want people to say its a shame that guy is dead he was a good man as odd as he was for his way of thinking.

its what i need, its what fuels me to live. some people have religion, we'll i have that to keep me going to give me strength.

anyways im going to bed, i'm going to wake up early tomorrow to go to the gym cya tomorrow.was a good talk.

Quote (MinatoNamikaze @ 12 Jan 2010 22:36)

oops...anyone awake?

Quote (MinatoNamikaze @ Jan 13 2010 02:36am)

oops...anyone awake?

Quote (MinatoNamikaze @ Jan 13 2010 03:36am)

oops...anyone awake?

Quote (Architects @ Jan 12 2010 11:55pm)

maybe work at a gym?
you like working out, be a personal trainer, i know a dude who's a personal trainer
and if you're one of those dudes, you impact their lives!  idk man, you're complicated as fuck.

to be honest, i like my jobs, but they're all part time, I want a full time job, and I don't want to be sitting at a desk all my life, i want a job where i'm active, and it gets my adrenaline pumpin n shit.
jobs can be fun.