Hitting the clubs and just going out and having a good time is paying off. I'm
getting phone numbers left and right, and have dates lined up for the
weekend and next week. I think quitting porn and masturbation definitely
forced me to quit cowering away from women and start trying to understand
what makes them attracted. Success with dating and relationships can be
learned by anyone I realize. I've had successes in the past (coincidentally 74
when I've abstained from PMO for a couple days) and realize it is all stuff I
already knew, just forgotten. This was similar to when I was learning how to
snowboard, and after not doing it successfully my first 9 tries, I just learned
from my own observations and trial and error. Other observations:
-Definitely more aware of when I'm being fake in order to impress people or
get them to like me. Also more aware of impulsive physical actions.
-Muscle mass is getting a lot bigger after working out. My skin is starting to
get stretch marks so I have to stop working out for a while! This never used
to happen
-Sense of well-being is steadier, although I notice a dip in mood towards the
end of the day. Music is helping me cope.
-There is more of a sense of "I am attractive" rather than "other people are
attractive."

lol, amúgy ezt többen is írták

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gyere csatlakozz kis társaságunkhoz, válj te is RL uralkodóvá!


10 days into this and I'm having no trouble at all. The benefits have been really
obvious - increased confidence, alertness, ability to focus on tasks and do the
best possible job. Increased strength during weight training. I think I'm giving off
some sort of aura now too that is attracting more women and most notably
women of high caliber. I could have probably had sex this weekend when I went
out to this party, but I decided not to because I want to do this right. It feels like
I'm just kicking ass at life at the moment. I'm seeing more gains from the weight
room than I have in a long time.

This post was edited by BmA_BeMyAngel on Nov 13 2011 12:00pm

én már igyis rl uralkodo vagyok
csak még senki nem tud rola

This post was edited by sylke on Nov 13 2011 12:04pm

what the f
elolvastam knowyourmemen ezt a szart, de még mindig nem értem


[Day 30] It’s been a tough ride but now I start to see the improvements! My
mood is very different, a more calm and relaxed default state that’s different
from anything I felt in the last years. Confidence is slighty up. Also when I
think of girls, I long as much for bonding behaviour (touch, affection etc) as
sex. This feels way, way more normal.


tl;dr:

[Day 12] I feel GREAT! I keep waking up earlier than my alarm clock ready to
take the world (I still get woodies but as soon as I get out of my bed and start my
day it goes away).
I went to the library two days ago and approached two girls. I never do that
unless I'm at the club. Even then it takes a lot effort for me to do it. The first one I
got her number (she was really cute and had a really kind personality) and the
second one had a serious boyfriend but she was still flirting with me the entire
time. I don't know what came over me. I saw them, got up from the computer
desk, and approached them like it was second nature. When I finished talking to 81
them, I have to admit I felt really proud of myself and happy. It was a huge
adrenaline rush lol. My interaction with them was awesome. I wasn't looking for
sex. I was looking for some awesome company and they just so happen to be
pretty. I felt like a kid again.
I have also been really introspective. Normally when I am around women I feel
intimidated or looking for one that will give me attention or I will look for one that
is down to do the dirty. So basically I used to have three categories of experience
with woman-
1. Who is down to do some things? If so, pleaasseee give me attention.
You maybe? You? How about you?
2. Intimidation. I used to feel really intimidated by woman. I would feel
weak and inadequate. Like I did not stack up to them.
3. I am a man and I am higher than you in a very a$$hole way.
Now it's..........equal. I don't want anything from them. I am enjoying myself and
just being me. I usually have to go to a doctors office and the woman staff there
have been...dare I say it?....nicer to me. My voice is deeper and I have a more
commanding presence. I feel separate from everyone else’s drama. I went to the
food court and it was packed with college students all my age group. The old me
would be high to numb out my social anxiety but I quit Mary Jane. The old me still
would've been nervous around groups of people even w/o MJ. But not yesterday!
I was just so calm and sure of myself. It was aweessooommmeee. There was a
girl that kept looking at me while I was sitting down. I normally get looks/glances
but she seriously kept looking at me. It was an ego booster but at the same time
really weird because she seriously kept looking at me lol. I don't know if she was
conscious of it or not lol. Whenever I go out of the house, I feel like I'm huge. I
feel big and larger than life. I have this swag and aura about me. I feel more
manly. The "voices" when I go out are all gone. I feel like no-one is judging me at
all.

This post was edited by BmA_BeMyAngel on Nov 13 2011 12:31pm

Van ennek valami hatása, két napja csalánkiütések vannak a kézfejemen, valami redva a torkomban meg a szájüregemben és ugyanaz a szar van a talpamon is ami kezemen amitől ma reggelre már járni se olyan jó. Valszeg ez kezdődött a lázzal.
Mondjuk valszeg a multheti koncerten szedtem össze, bár nem űbereli a tavalyi zp-s kórságom ahol egy napon múlott, hogy nem vitettem be magam mentővel a korházba annyira fostam meg hánytam napokig.

hú nekem pár éve volt egy hányós (gondolom) vírusfertőzésem

este semmit nem aludtam, csak kuporogtam az ágy szélén reménykedve, hogy az inger közeledtével eljutok a 3 méterre lévő wc-ig (nem mindig sikerült)

egy idő után áttértem a kádra, mert abba könnyebb betalálni

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