It's a tough battle. You WILL feel normal again, though. The weirdness that you're experiencing, is that you are actually feeling, not being numb and emotionless. Glory be to God that he gave you the strength to stop and have made it to two months. It is smooth sailing from here on out, so long as you know your triggers, who to stay away from (never hang out with people who still use, no matter how strong in God, how strong you feel your self control is, no matter what.) If it is your step-brother, uncle, aunt - eliminate them from your life. This is your life and you have chosen the sober and better life. Not one of never knowing when you will get your next fix, knowing that you will be kicking your legs like crazy in bed without your pill, shot, or line or spoon full of rocks. I have never used hard drugs, but I was prescribed prescription pain-killers and was on them for quite some time. I thought the pain was still there after a year, however it was only my body experiencing withdrawals. You become physically dependent on opiates extremely quickly and like others have said, it does take a little while for your dopamine, seratonin, neurotonin, and other levels to even out to base line in your brain. You are a child of God. You are a trooper. You are a strong person, and NOTHING can stop you from attaining the normalcy that you so desire; not even yourself. Give yourself to God and let him take the reigns (it's Christmas season) and let the sleigh bells jingle as you travel the happy road of recovery. Remember, there are always people worse off then you, be happy for your current help, health, ability to post on the internet as an added outlet, and above all else; your Faith in God. He believes in you, as do soo many others. Pray daily and thank God for all that you have. Show pity to others and be grateful everyday, even though it may not seem like there is a lot to be thank and grateful for, thank your Lord anyways. For blessing you with courage, divine strength, and the combination of knowledge that has led you to stop doing drugs. With all of these assets, you can go in to the world confident, knowing you have the tools and necessary courage to stay clean and also help those who may stumble. If they're your close friends, those that still use, you may try to help them. Most of them will say you are on your high-horse and feel like you're better than them and that they aren't addicted or don't have a problem like you did. Ignore these arrogant fools. They will be stuck in their ways for many more years to come. Do not let them discourage you, and if they turn down your advice, it is not their time. Perhaps God has something else in store for them. At least you tried, but the focus is on yourself. You will be fine so long as you keep a loving, open heart and allow God, Jesus Christ to flow through it and you, mind, body, and soul, every day. My bible verse given to me from 3 years of confirmation classes (I am Lutheran) John 14:6 - I am the way the truth and the light. Known sha'll come to the father except through me." BELIEVE FOR HE HAS RISEN AND DIED FOR YOUR SINS, YOU ARE FORGIVEN MY BROTHER! In Jesus name we sha'll all pray for you, amen.