It is cold without the lord. The sight of him on my heart... my yearning for his precious face. My struggles all seem to have been in vain. The battle seems to be over for me, all of the trials and suffering.. All in vain. I see the moon and i feel fear rising in my heart. The wind hallows when I believe I've found my way causing my fear to consume me. My worst enemy is myself as i face death and his army. They slandered me and my actions my spirit was in turmoil. Since my young age they have been secretly deceiving me to lead a life in a direction away from the Lord. The time came when HE called and I listened, my life was halted for his voice. His majestic voice filled my heart and my soul. My enemy's seemed weak and without power knowing the Lord was with me. King David, a blessing.. I feel his pain as the foe oppresses me, but I am filled with joy as i hear of his redemption and his victory. The Lord called him to his voice and he listened even though he sined, the Lord made a promise and even though he felt as all was lost, his spirit crused, The Lord redeemed. . . . The day is coming to an end, i can feel it. I was told of it and the coming events. Now I watch the days go by and I am lonely I feel lost without him, But i know it is my own folly that has separated me from him. .. Jacob? My name? Is this who you speak to, Oh Lord? Has the enemy deceived me even farther then I thought? Have they manipulated my Mind, and your words? Your silence is a challenge to me and my pain bears on my chest year after year. Alone..The enemy is silent now.. Is it because they have me right were they want me? Is this even real... Or is it in all in my head? Why do wicked thoughts creep into the darkness of my mind?... The truth was set in my heart by your word, and as you have told me It will return to you, as you please. I am alone, Oh Lord, my foe DESTROYED ME. Why have I let this happen knowing you were with me and this was your plan?! Is it still your plan? Is it finally about to reach a climax? Will i see your return as promised? Your city made for us, your chosen? Or have I been deceived by this world and the wickedness of your foes oh Lord, they are your enemy's and they are destroying your people. Look at them slander your name all over their music. Why did I listen to them? I needed someone to trust, I didn't trust you oh Lord. I confess this, My own folly destroyed me. My own sins consume me. My fear is winning me over. My evil heart doesn't seem to stop...When will I see? When will my heart flourish like grass. I am your servant even though I have been disobedient. I hate myself, oh Lord, how can I love others if I can't find it in me to love myself? All I want is you, My life is yours but sin is destroying me. Oh Lord, come to my aid.

Isaiah 43:1-13 But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you. O Israel, the one who formed you says, “Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom; I gave Ethiopia[a] and Seba in your place. Others were given in exchange for you. I traded their lives for yours because you are precious to me. You are honored, and I love you. “Do not be afraid, for I am with you. I will gather you and your children from east and west. I will say to the north and south, ‘Bring my sons and daughters back to Israel from the distant corners of the earth. Bring all who claim me as their God, for I have made them for my glory. It was I who created them.’” Bring out the people who have eyes but are blind, who have ears but are deaf. Gather the nations together! Assemble the peoples of the world Which of their idols has ever foretold such things? Which can predict what will happen tomorrow? Where are the witnesses of such predictions? Who can verify that they spoke the truth? “But you are my witnesses, O Israel!” says the Lord. “You are my servant. You have been chosen to know me, believe in me, and understand that I alone am God. There is no other God— there never has been, and there never will be. I, yes I, am the Lord, and there is no other Savior. First I predicted your rescue, then I saved you and proclaimed it to the world. No foreign god has ever done this. You are witnesses that I am the only God,” says the Lord. “From eternity to eternity I am God. No one can snatch anyone out of my hand. No one can undo what I have done.”


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This post was edited by aionaris on Jul 3 2012 01:27am