A little background of originally what I've done and such. I'm from a small country town where everyone knows everyone. I use to go to church when I was much younger (around 7 and such) and I didn't pay much attention obviously. I've been going back, the first day I went back I was warmly greeted (felt extremely welcome, especially since we're a small country church, people don't dress up), and people remembered who I was so it was even more of a greet.

With that being said - I've been going every Sunday, recently went to Sunday school today and stayed for the normal service. I've also went to a few bible studies we have on Wednesday. I'm pretty involved and highly interested in learning about Jesus Christ and the history and such (I'm extremely big into medieval times, etc, so I do feel as it falls under the category of things I'm wanting to learn more into), but ultimately I hear talk of serving Him, give your life to Jesus, have that personal relationship with him (our pastor doesn't try to force us in anyway, but he's there to encourage) - ultimately I'm not sure.

I have questions such as, how do we absolutely know there is a Jesus Christ? I've also heard about Romans many many years before Jesus, would hang people on crosses same as they did him to send a message of some sorts saying "Don't mess with the Army, etc". I'm not entirely sure if that's true, but I'm just curious is all.

I've been going to this baptist church for a long time, not continuously but frequently more often now because I'm interested and also highly welcomed like everyone is. I'm still on the edge of, yes I love hearing the gospel about Jesus Christ (if I'm saying that right, do excuse me if I'm not), I do love historic times and I'd like to ultimately confess the sin I've done and such, have that personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

But, of course, as I said I do have them questions, concerns, what if I'm just praying to nobody and such? Also, another question I'm a bit concerned about is, what if I'm in the military and I've killed before? Is that a unforgivable sin? I've heard that Jesus Christ forgives anyone, but what about the ultimate sin of killing another?

Anywho, thanks for hearing my rambling on about it -- I'd like to learn a whole lot more about him and possibly become a Christian, I'm very interested.

I'm looking forward to any responses on what you think.

You can rape torture and murder 100,000 children and still be forgiven if you believe the bible.


There is no proof for anything you're asking for so if you're looking for it you're going to be disappointed. All you'll find is people saying well you can't disprove it.

Let's see if i can help you.

The only real way to see that Jesus is real is to go to where he is working.
Then after you see Him at work, then you will have the faith.
I attend a baptist church myself and the one I go to isn't what I would say a filled church.

As for the war question, all you can do is ask forgiveness of your sin.
I believe since you were killing someone in the protection of your family, He would forgive.
The only ones who knows all the circumstances are you and God.

Asking questions is good, because it shows that your interested, and once you have found the answer, you will become closer in your walk.

Hope I have helped.

If you really want to, you will give up your life for Him.

Paul killed many people following Christ and ended up writing 2/3 the New Testament.

Here is an excerpt.

Galatians 2:20 (King James Version) I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

Led to add this one from John as well...

John 10:27 (King James Version) My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me: