Quote (OmegaSlayer @ Jan 19 2011 01:35am)
well so far i kinda lost my faith
used to be all into my faith.
sense My Mother passed away in 2008 every time i think of her i start to cry nomatter where im at or what im doing
iv sense turnd to drinking a lot. But i quit the heavyer drungs like weekd Coke Meth and stuff like that that
now im living with My asshole of a Dad and His New Girl Friend and they are moving into a new house
all my friends arnt into religion at all.
i dont have anyone to talk to about this stuff and how it is affecting me
last person i talkd to was a Doctor when i was in the hospital and i broke down crying in front of him aswell about this topic and he suggest a Depresion therapist to talk to but i cant afford that.
just looking for guiadiance with my faith and my life at this tragic point in my life
My heart is breaking for you bro. There are a lot of underlying things that are going on here and I really do feel that you need lots of healing. Praise God that He is a God of healing and redemption. As cliche as it is, God is in control of everything. Every time something isn't going in "my favor", I turn to Romans 8:28 and know that God is in control and loves me but perhaps that type of relationship hasn't existed. I don't know where you are at this point with God but I know even myself we always need to recommit to God and to quote a song, Jesus needs to take the wheel of our life. I would definitely suggest that you seek some help from a church as it appears you are seeking help based on the Bible. I am sure that if you go to any strongly biblical based church, a pastor would not turn you down. If he does, keep looking for a church that can help you. I know my current church has support groups for men's issues and such so maybe that can be a starting point.
As I type this, my counselor side of me senses that you do need someone to help you dig deeper in all the hurt, pain and confusion you are dealing with. I say this as a Christian male who is studying to become a school counselor (although slightly different than clinical, I am aware when issues are present). By no means would I be able to provide the healing you need as I am unqualified to do so but I would definitely seek some biblical counseling from whatever church you attend and perhaps at a discounted rate (maybe they have counselors there that would provide this service for free). Please do keep that in mind as counseling is not a measure of weakness but truly a measure of strength. It takes a certain amount of strength to understand you can't handle it alone and ask for help.
One more thing, you will need to take some sort of action. Starting here isn't a bad spot but in order to see change, you have to completely take the necessary steps. It can be hard but I assure you that no matter WHAT you give up, God in His infinite power can not only give you back what you gave up but exceed the sacrifice. Be blessed brother because we have someone who loves us so much and we are in the palm of His hand...even when we are so disobedient! His grace and mercy NEVER fails!
This post was edited by AsianChexMix on Jan 22 2011 09:47pm