So I wrote a letter to my girl the past three days.

Legitimate pen and paper. Ended up being 14 pages long.

Mostly "I miss you, you're a great person, we get along together, insert memory here, I miss talking to you, I want you in my life somehow, goodbye etc."

I said "I hope we can talk again sometime even if it's just as friends." I really connect with this person and she makes me stronger.

If she talks to me again she does, if not she doesn't. It's really in God's hand.

On another note...

I've been texting her "good morning" and "good night" every day for the past 11 days without a response.

My phone falls out of my pocket and into the toilet last night. As you can guess I'm nowhere near happy about that. I asked God for help and maybe that's a sign from him, I'm not sure.

I'm going to either fix my phone or get a new one but there's still a feeling inside of me that I'm supposed to keep in touch with this girl.

I've prayed for guidance every night on this matter and usually I've been pretty good at keeping it out of my mind, but I realize around 11pm every night I randomly check my phone, realize the time and send her another text.

I sent the letter out today and am going to fix my phone tomorrow. I've read over letters and the journal she wrote to me and it really comforted me.

She said a lot of stuff about not wanting to live a life without me, and how it would take a while for her to see me as just a friend. How sometime when the timing is better she hopes we're both available and we can restart what we've already built.

And that's simply a great love and friendship.

I guess the question I have to ask is if you've ever had a friendship like that where you love someone unconditionally, almost as a family member.

Anyways I needed to write this all to somebody, my friends are all at work and I've been thinking about it for the past three hours now.

i had a sitiuation kinda like this a few months back, but she wasnt my 'girl' just my heart was open in the wrong way and i started falling in to lust about her.

I mean id txt her, no response, keep trying..
eventually she just randomly was like 'stop txting me, GAHHH!!!! ' and claiming i used her when i only hung out with her like twice..
anyways.... the point is just to try and go a few days w/o txting her, try a different approach, see what happens.

Id just say tot alk it out with her and GET GUIDANCE FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT. thats my input.

(not saying its over, just if you dont know whats going on, try to talk it out, with her.)

Yeah I've been trying to contact her for the past 11 days, maybe God's telling me to leave her alone for a few days or whatever.

Like she said, she doesn't want to know what life would be like without me. And when she ended things (because of her parents) she said the timing was just wrong right now with school and everything.

Maybe I just need to find myself again, I'm not sure. The letter is going to get there tomorrow, I won't have had contact with her for 2 days then. Maybe she'll want to start talking again soon.

In my heart though I know I'm not supposed to let her go. I don't mean relationship wise, but we both opened ourselves up to eachother and fell so deeply in love, just a pure connection. Someone you can tell anything to and not feel judged and vice versa.

I've never had that kind of relationship with anyone and neither has she.

there is a great article in Believers Voice of Victory magazine for October 2010 and its called Was that me Lord or was that you?

and its about listening to the Holy Spirit carefully and how to listen to it and how to find out if its you or if its the Lord talking to you.

let me see if i can find it

it helped me alot

here it is:

Writen by Gloria Copeland

I have asked believers all over the world this question:
“When you think God may be directing you, do you say, ‘Was that
me, Lord, or was that You?’” I believe this uncertainty to be the major
drawback to our following God through our spirit, directed by the
Holy Spirit. | Most serious Christians would do anything God told them to if they
knew for sure they were being directed by God—if they heard Him with their natural ears or saw Him with their natural
eyes. But most of the time God does not deal with us that way. He sent His Spirit to live in our spirit to constantly teach,
enlighten and guide us. We must learn how to hear God in our spirit.
As we spend time daily praying in the spirit, it becomes
easier for us to hear the direction of the Holy Spirit as He
reveals His will to our spirit.
Recognize the Promptings
“So now we serve not under [obedience to] the old
code of written regulations, but [under obedience to the
promptings] of the Spirit in newness [of life]” (Romans
7:6, The Amplified Bible). We are no longer bound to obey
written regulations, but we are to serve by obeying the
promptings of our reborn spirit, which is controlled by
the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit communicates with our
spirit. He dwells in our spirit.
I believe this is an area of confusion when we are learning
to walk in the spirit. As the Lord was clarifying this to me,
He made me realize that most of the time I would hear my
own spirit speaking to my soul, which is my mind, will and
emotions. The audible voice of the Lord is rare in most of
our lives. Almost every leading we will receive in everyday
life will be a prompting, an impression, a thought, an inward
witness, a leading or an unction from our spirit.
The reason it sounds like us is because it is ourselves
that we hear. The Holy Spirit communicates with our
spirit, and our spirit prompts, or enlightens, our mind.
“But the person who is united to the Lord becomes one
spirit with Him” (1 Corinthians 6:17, AMP). The key
word united in Greek means “to glue or cement together.”
Jesus said, “If a man love me, he will keep my words: and
my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and
make our abode with him” (John 14:23). This describes
being joined, or united, to the Lord.
When we start our day by praying the will of God
by the Holy Spirit, many times we will have already
prayed concerning the problems we will face during the
day. We will perceive an interpretation, a prompting,
an impression, a word or a sentence that will enlighten
us and give us the answer to the situation. It will be so
natural to us that we might not even realize it is the Holy
Spirit leading and revealing Himself to us. Things that
would have been stumbling blocks to us before will now
be handled with ease by hearing and obeying the will of
God as the Holy Spirit leads us.
Trusting the Voice of the Spirit
We need to learn to instantly obey the voice of our spirit.
I don’t think there is any way to cultivate this communion

between the Holy Spirit and our spirit, and between our
spirit and our mind, except by spending time in prayer and
in the Word of God. We read that the Holy Spirit teaches by
comparing spiritual things with spiritual. Hebrews 4:12 says,
“For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than
any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of
soul and spirit.”
Only the Word of God will separate or differentiate between
the soul and the spirit. Our soul relies on natural knowledge to
form its opinions until natural knowledge is replaced by the
supernatural knowledge of God. In Romans 12:2, this process
of replacing the thoughts of natural, carnal man with the
thoughts of God is called “the renewing of your mind.”
You might be asking, “How can I tell the difference and
be sure when it is God or just me?” You will have to begin a
quest for the things of God. The Scripture lets us know that if
we seek God, we will find Him. Spiritual things do not come
without serious effort.
We are told in Hebrews 11:6 that “without faith it is
impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must
believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that
diligently seek him.” We know that we have to approach God
in faith—that is, without being able to see proof in the natural
realm. We must learn to believe Him without seeing Him.
From that verse we also find another key to knowing God: He
is the rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
Give God Entrance
There is no selfish, easy way to walk with God while we live
in the earth and in a natural body. We will do it God’s way or
not at all.
His way is for us to serve Him with our whole spirit, soul and
body. We have to change our thoughts, opinions and actions to
agree with His. God wants us to live the rest of our time in this
earth not conforming to the will of man, or to our own will, but
conforming to His will. When we put ourselves in a position of
obedience, we give God the freedom to overwhelm the natural
circumstances of this life with His supernatural power.
Remember, God’s Word comes to us in two ways: (1) by
the written Word, and (2) by the Holy Spirit speaking to our
spirit. We begin with the assurance that God’s written Word
is our sure word. The Holy Spirit will never lead you contrary
to the written Word of God. If you receive a prompting that
is in opposition to the written Word, you will know it is not
from the Holy Spirit.
Simply ask the Holy Spirit to teach you how to follow
Him. Give Him control of your life and He will reveal to you
the will of God, step by step. He knows how to bring you to
maturity. All He requires of you is your attention and your
obedience.

This is an awesome article read it and it will change the way you talk to God

This post was edited by weasleface on Sep 22 2010 12:17pm

Well all I know is the whole time I've been asking him to give me a sign.

I've wondered if I should stop texting her and albeit my phone breaks

Whether it's a sign or not I obviously can't text her anymore so prayer answered. haha

Honestly, and please don't get upset here, but I feel your phone dropping in the toilet was a sign to stop contacting her. 11 days straight of messaging her and her not responding, especially after she says something along the lines "it would take a while for her to see me as just a friend", is borderline obsessive on your part.

I'd like to talk to you a bit more about this, but privately, so I can get a better understanding of this. But as of this point I would say leave the girl alone for a little bit and do exactly as you said, "Maybe I just need to find myself again, I'm not sure."

Maybe the breakup with her was so that you can focus on you and the Lord and become one again with just Him.

Either way, you'll be in my prayers. God Bless.

ya u really need a lot of help with girlz lol after 3 days you should of stopped texting and let her be like ehhh y isnt he texting me anymore
make her go after u XD

One time I ate a burger without praying over the food. I got diarrhea the lesson being get a priest to sanctify your women.

thank you sir for your persecution. praying God blesses you , and reporting you to Rew.

In this man's opinion, I would give her some space. I don't know the context of what happened or anything. But I'm sure 11 days is enough to get your point across. True love is patient - like God's patience and love for us. Give her some time to hear from God what it right, rather than hearing from you everynight. I think it would be a lot less confusing for her, and would also show her that you care for her.