okay, so i was baptized catholic, and my dad was catholic, and my mom was baptist, they didn't care much about going to church or anything like that at all, but where i live, we are surrounded by a lds/mormon church, an apostolic church, a baptist church, a buddhist temple, and i think a lutheran church or something, not sure. they weren't really big on going to church and worshipping or anything like that, they felt that you didn't need to prove to everyone else that you believed in god by going to church, they thought you could worship him at home, and from what i remember, they never enforced any religious studies, or made us worship anything, they rarely talked about it. actually, all through out my life they've been real mad about how they think church is just an excuse to socialize n whatnot, my mom is real cynical.
so i'm thinking, do you think that if you enforce your kids to go to church that it is more likely that they'd believe, or uh, do you think going to church to worship is better than staying at home and worshipping? i'm not sure how to word that question.
also, i always here of everyone saying how they were saved by god, or heard a voice, or just felt that they had to do something or go somewhere. i have never felt anything like that, ever, i mean i have, but it's simple things like, if i hear a voice, i feel like it's me, thinking, not someone else talking to me, and if i felt i had to do something it was for a reason, or well, because i wanted to do it, but i never do things on impulse, and if i ever wanted to go somewhere out of state or anything like that, then it'd be somewhere i really wanted to visit or ride or whatever. i never experienced that voice, and i don't feel that i've been saved, and believe me, i have tried to talk to god, numerous times, but after no response in any way, so many times, i just started to rely on myself. this guy that said i was going to hell a while back said that people are chosen to believe, and not everyone gets saved or can hear the voice of god. it made me wonder, what do these people have that i don't have, and how come on the weekends or the days that they are not at church, they seem less righteous than anyone i personally know, and yet, they can hear god or they have been saved. it doesn't seem fair to me.
the question here is, are there people who just aren't chosen to believe or anything like that, or people that are chosen to hear the voice of god or be saved?
now, i can feel love, i feel like it's there. how come when someone asks me if i believe in god or something and i'm like, it's not important, or don't worry about it, or i completely change the subject, they persist to question me, like i need to be saved or, i need something. then when i explain to them that i just don't feel anything, they're like, it's like love, you can't see it, you can't hear it, you can't smell it, but you can feel it, and i'm like yea, i can feel love, why can't i feel god or anything like that. usually the conversation stops there with, you should stop by my church some time, and usually i do stop by, see what it's about, and usually it's the same deal as the last church or gathering to worship place, i visit a few more times, nothing still. i never needed anyone or anything to keep me going, i've been through some tough times, but i've never felt the need to ask anyone for help, ever. why do people say i need help or things like that, when i feel i do not and that i handle myself appropriately.
what makes love different from the belief in god, or feeling god?
am i not sincere when trying to talk with god, or is there something i am doing wrong?
do you feel that you need god to survive, and if not, why do the people that i've talked to act like i need god in my life to survive?
what do you get from all of this? or, what do you, infer? i'm thinking infer is the word i'm looking for, correct me if i'm wrong.
I will have more questions as time gos on.