but i dont like christianity because my whole family dislikes me all because i do not "love the lord" like i should... honestly i think that it has broken me and my family apart rather then bring us together. need helpppppppppppp

I don't think you're crazy for that. I think your family needs to give you room to form your own opinion on life and it's meaning.

i already have formed my own opinion they just dont agree with me and dont ever take me seriously and treat me like im 5

it is not up to your family to judge you, that is the Lord himself

if you feel you are living in a Christian way, serving God, who is to them to decide if you "love the Lord" properly?

when i said "love the lord" like i should" i meant like they believe in his ways and i am agnostic, i think u got it mixed up a bit

You are not crazy! Well at least not in this situation.

You are just undecided and they seem to be not helping you much.

On the bright side, it is probably because they actually care and love you they bother you about it. That brings out emotions that may cloud them, from actually sharing things God would have them share with you.

Doesn't matter what kind of person you are, even as far as a murderer or a suicide bomber your parents above all people should be the ones supporting your decision.

Fight fire with fire IMO.

I'm sorry to hear this, I think that they just know what is best for you and just don't know how to properly say it without trying to form some kind of guilt. This is not the way to go about it, God will show himself to you when you are ready and they should be patient and pray for you.

Good luck with your family, hopefully my words helped.

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