Quote (x]FoRsaKeN[x @ Mar 28 2010 01:57pm)
I accepted Christ as my Savior 5 years ago and up until now i've been living it. I have no doubt whatsoever about my salvation and I am so thankful for it. I didn't really grow up in the church, but I am going to a Christian school right now and i'm preparing for college. I don't go to church, but I lead our chapel every friday morning and am the worship leader, so i'm in a tough position. I can't share this type of thing with others because way too many people look up to me. Over the past 5 months, i've been having sex with my girlfriend of 5 months and i've been feeling guilty, but I just can't stop. She herself is a Christian and said that she's willing to go through the whole relationship without sex, but I just can't find it in myself to do it. I'm almost scared what i'm doing to myself if I don't stop. I know God forgives, but I find it hard to rationalize in my mind that He would still want me even if I am voluntarily sinning against Him, and knowing what i'm doing.
Edit: I don't know if you guys are "once saved always saved people", but I am and have been, and I am in no way using that as an excuse to get away with sin. I'm just almost doubting that I can't lose it if I don't stop.
only way to know is test it out right?
blind faith gets people hurt/killed.