sorry wrong topic

This post was edited by K1NGEN on Apr 10 2014 10:37am

If anyone still cares; here's an update.

What I prayed for happened, she gave me a second chance. I was overly happy, but I realized soon that I wasn't the right guy for her. I tried my best to make her happy and get it to work, but we are too different. I also fucked up a couple of times, but I felt like I had to watch my steps so close and trying to be perfect that it wasn't really any point. I couldn't totally relax with her like I could before, because every little wrong I did would result in she getting mad, and me breaking my promises of her not regretting going back to me. I am little depressed now, mainly because I broke so many of the things I said I would never do again. I still have to work on myself, and I'll hopefully find a girl as good as her, who can love me for who I am. When school is done in a couple of months we'll go separate ways, and I hope I'll start enjoying the single life again. I just pray that I will find a girl like her again, she was kind of perfect in most ways, but our personalities was a mismatch. That makes me think I'll never get a good girl like her.

As you can tell I'm really back and forth, I just hope my prayers come true that I'll find a girl I can live with and love for the rest of my life. I also find it hard keeping my relationship with God, I am getting drawn further and further away from him, the less depressed I am.

This was messy written, but I can't be arsed writing it over since no one gives a shit anyway, I just felt like typing down my own thoughts.

Peace

what defines a "good girl" for you? what makes you think you can't find another "good girl?" the world is gigantic, full of some amazing people. just because you haven't met them yet doesn't mean they aren't out there. and as for your fear of being "forever alone," you shouldn't get a girlfriend just because you don't want to feel lonely. i recommend being solo for a bit, living your life the way you want to live it. doing the things that you love to do, (as long as they are healthy choices ofc) make a list with some small goals, accomplish them, and be happy. if you make some friends along the way, be it male or female, so be it. now you can enjoy your life with these new friends. if you discover that one of these friends is a female that you can see yourself getting involved deeper with, go for it. the "right girl for you" isn't the one who you can't feel comfortable around. therefore, your ex wasn't the one you were meant to be with. you're just hung up on her, so it feels that way. live life and keep your head up, the world unfolds the way it's supposed to. you don't want a "girl like her again" you want someone who is right for you. & you shouldn't let yourself be led away from God, that's not good at all. keep him in your heart always

Start by reading the bible.

I would highly recommend finding a local Church of Christ and trying to attend and speak with some people after to get involved and meet new people.


As far as the you praying to God and him not answering thing.... He did. You are not together for a reason.


Here is the thing about Christ and Religion as a whole;


It is called faith for a reason.



All you can do is believe that he is leading you in the right direction and that you will find the person you truly deserve to be with soon enough.

Put your life into God's hands and the rest will follow.



I was raised in a Church family on my fathers half, and a pot smoking alcoholic family on my mothers side.


I have seen all sides of the spectrum and I can firmly tell you that I will never look back on my life without Christ.

He has blessed me with a wonderful job in the Military, a beautiful wife who would walk to the end of the world and back for me, and the most amazing son I can ever ask for.



Are those things possible without God? Absolutely, but I put Faith into him and I choose to believe that it was all made possible because he strengthens me to be a better person, husband, and a father.







Please pm me if you ever have any serious questions.

I can skype/text/email/pm at anytime.

Mathew 17:20 -
"Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

This post was edited by Endure on Apr 25 2014 11:23am

BTW here is the most important thing.


Do NOT let anyone hinder you from learning about God.
Friends will put you down and make fun of you. They will also tell you how stupid it is. Just keep in mind, it is easy for a fool to blindly hate something they know nothing about.

Knowledge of a subject is the ONLY way to know if it is for you or not.

First off; thanks to both of you. It really helped reading your posts.



Very supportive, thank you. I'm starting to understand that now, I could never be with her. It's just so damn hard since I am so attached to her, and she's soooo pretty/hot, lol..
Regarding my faith, I know it's not good that I am getting led away. He gave me everything I prayed for, I need to take time to read the Bible I think. Dunno





Thank you. I'm starting to realize now how pathetic it really is to be thinking like I am and have been, there are so many nice girls out there. She just set the standard so high, and I'm a shy guy. I just think I'll have serious trouble finding such a girl again. With such a girl I mean a pretty and nice girl with ambitions. I could write 100 other qualities which she has and that I love, but I won't be getting into that

I hope when school ends in june and when we go different ways I'll go back to be the happy man I used to be. I am also scared that this space will drive me completely away from God, although I'll try hard not to make that happen.

Edit: Just went out on a small concert with a couple of friends. I didn't think of her all night (at least not much). I guess I need to socialize with other people more