Quote (OmegaSlayer @ Jan 19 2011 01:35am)
well so far i kinda lost my faith
used to be all into my faith.
sense My Mother passed away in 2008 every time i think of her i start to cry nomatter where im at or what im doing
iv sense turnd to drinking a lot. But i quit the heavyer drungs like weekd Coke Meth and stuff like that that
now im living with My asshole of a Dad and His New Girl Friend and they are moving into a new house
all my friends arnt into religion at all.
i dont have anyone to talk to about this stuff and how it is affecting me
last person i talkd to was a Doctor when i was in the hospital and i broke down crying in front of him aswell about this topic and he suggest a Depresion therapist to talk to but i cant afford that.
just looking for guiadiance with my faith and my life at this tragic point in my life
well i'm glad to know you're no longer into coke and meth, but yeah i feel ya man... i lost my mom a few years ago too, i basically went through this same path, i thot i was strong enough to handle anything in life until she passed away because of cancer, and then everything just crashed, it was like... i hated God, i neglected everything i knew and chose to do what i wanted because at the time it felt like God wouldnt answer my prayers anyways.. I prayed and prayed that she would be healed.. but God still took her away from me... so i felt as if God rejected me... but in a series of events... and ofcourse, as i grew more mature through God allowing certain people to come into my life, i came to the conclusion that God was good
even though i didnt get what i wanted... i know this is a hard time for you but i feel as if though that since God can put people in my life to help me realize the truth, God could put people in youre life and open opportunities in your life to help you
what i had realized was that first off, God will not allow you to go through something that you can't handle, and you posting this on a public forum shows to me that you're atleast trying to get help, which means that you are willing to go on, which means that you are strong enough for this, secondly, trials and tribulations are allowed by God to happen in order to grow our faith in him, if everything was so hunky dory... then our faith would be so small
thirdly, God uses the bad things that happen to us for good, i know it's so easy for us to blame God for everything, but in truth it is him that's taking the bad things we do to ourselves as humans, and making new opportunities or good things to happen as a result of the bad things... for example, before my passed away, i was entering into college and i didnt know what i wanted to do with my life, but because of her death i chose to go into the medical field and attempt to help those who would be going through the same thing... i'm not tellin you all this info jus to gloat about how good i have it now, but instead to show you that there is light at the end of the tunnel... and i impress on you not to give up on God, i really do... he's workin on something good.. even though you dont see it now and even though you might be angry at him... i also really recommend that you call out to him again... he promises to show himself when you call to him