thanks and God bless the both of you and ev1 on JSP

To be honest.
Never clicked with God growing up, I did go to church (Sunday school and Bible day-camp) on and off in my youth. But I never understood it and couldn't believe the magic tricks (walking on water, resurrection, multiplying the fish) So God and I grew apart.

Teen years, punk rock and atheism, nihilism sets in. Fun times, built myself around saying no to stupid rules, strayed far from the path. My friend and I decide the most punk thing to do would be transfer to Catholic school and FTS.

Goodbye black uniform, hello school uniform.

Thought I would disagree with most religion classes and be a disturbance. Surprised myself when it became one of my favourite classes. The only class that I would tame the class clown in me. Still didnt practise what they preached though. The sentiment stuck though.

Fast forward, I've been through maaaany tests, as we all have. Trying to conclude all the hardships with a happy, well intentioned purpose is IMPOSSIBLE. I think a lot about things and have an abudance of empathy. It's lead me to believe that all of my connection to Christianity was to build a soul. The mind could never handle all the questions in life. The soul you build is what defends you when you're mind/body/heart is assaulted.

tl;dr Faith in God is important to me. Faith in which God isnt.

This post was edited by WastedPenguinz on Apr 19 2022 10:26am

Interesting, Penguin. Thanks for the response.

In regard to covid.
I think the general Godless-ness in society is what largely allowed for people's adherence to restrictions.
The old phrase "If you believe in nothing, you'll fall for anything"
I'm disappointed at what we've allowed our world to become.
But it's no one's fault. What good are we as a team if we can't agree on anything.

Decisions made without contention or sacrifice are rarely what's best for everyone.

very short version
i spent most my life irreligious became a alcoholic chasing my own lusts. with a broken body found myself in front of a computer playing video games and getting drunk most of the time waiting out the time. got it into my head one day to "find the truth of it all" never was the thought of God on my mind. eventually my search ended up researching scripture. perhaps one of the first things i took notice of is scripture (the christian way) is a better way. eventually it seemed it was the only truth in the world so i repented. eventually even delivered from alcoholism and thats a trip, never did i think that was even possible, even though i asked for it.

props to you man, you're an overcomer, now you need to be open to the renewing of your mind so you can improve what you're already doing.

Start posting more visuals and expanding positively and creatively. Evil wants you caught in a negative loop so the imagination of the heart needs to be focused on betterment.

Proud of your story!

+1

I can relate big time, Ti and Im happy to hear your story!
Stay the path brother

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