Quote (Handcuffs @ 16 Jun 2020 21:16)
I think something beyond PaRD is truly what's unhealthy for you, and humbly encourage you to do some introspection. Your callousness is both surprising on an individual level, but also when considering your line of work.
The idea that you're comfortable holding leverage and denying emergency services so as to prove some kind of 'point' is baffling. It's in clear, stark contrast to the Code of Ethics that anyone in a helping profession adheres to.
I appreciate you calling me out and reminding me of central tenets of my profession. I think I have allowed the toxicity of modern-day politics to affect me and my posts too much.
I also have not infrequently viewed politics and political discussions as a "game" of sorts that is interesting to follow, to analyze, to discuss. I am so very isolated from many or even most of the effects that are talked about. Trump is something that doesn't even feel real to me, only something on a TV screen or a URL of a tweet. I'm desensitized to mass shootings and the violence I see on my phone and computer screen. What's real anymore?
I actually think this 'derealization' is a common phenomena in modern day American politics, potentially compounded by being behind a keyboard and feeling less inhibited and more anonymous. I think it has made our society more callous and less understanding of each other and meaner, especially when engaging online.
And for that, I do believe I need some time for introspection. I actually verbalized this to my wife today, how I don't like how negative I've become these past few weeks. Thank you for calling me out and nudging me in the right direction. I also think PaRD is not the best place for this type of change. Will miss you.