Quote (Chainsaw47 @ Apr 19 2018 07:26pm)
How does one manage to avoid ‘carving’ his brain into inadequacy?
I know only one boy who has achieved such a feat.
And this boy is me.
So I'll tell you my story.
I am Jewish.
My great grand-father was a very very popular rabbi in Algeria.
In Jewish culture, we learn to manipulate the bonds of trust.
(on apprend à manipuler les liens de confiance)My father is right-handed, and he is wild and violent.
My maternal grandmother is left handed.
My maternal grandmother protected me a lot during my childhood.
I always saw my father as a savage.
So
I refused to create bonds of trust with my father.
I never created a bond of trust with my father.
I always refused to do that.
I always refused to turn my back on him.
How to live with my father (in the same house as him), when I can not create bonds of trust with him?I was forced to sculpt my brain in adequacy.
I was forced to live in the psychic world, like everyone else.
I had to learn concepts such as revenge, love and kindness.
At the same time, I also had to live in the physical world.
I had to pay attention to my father.
It was mandatory for me to survive.
Adequacy, it is carved in early childhood.This post was edited by Chevaucheur on Apr 19 2018 01:41pm