Feeling of fail

What can I do


I'm sorry god

Feeding Something that will not be satisfied ever.


No point in slipping



Especially after god gave me these snowshoes


Blessed be the name of the Lord most high.

In Jesus name

Amen

If your eye is good , your whole body will be good



Your eye is what you see.


Screen capture audit




Digitally
Physically
Mentally

Images

If I took a scan of your eyes



I could probably tell

Writhing


Not pain necessarily
A twisting inwardly .



Something pitiful and sad.

Cracked mentally.

Mind is spoiled....







Help me god.


Help me.


I have mercy but what about others?





A twisted dead knot that is twisting even further.


Stomping on what is already crushed

A welchimg wretch

Writhing in pleasure and pain


Like bacteria being burned by vinegar



I am bitten again and again.




A twisting sensation

I'm dance for u



I'm gonna dance for u babe.



I'm here. Blowing in the wind .



I am here to do precisely the minimal.


And tomorrow too.



Through January we will be


And pretty much from now and onward.







The more I work the less I have to work.



Plus I'd rather work a ton with the agency business account instrad of picking up straight time with my current employer.



Everything seeems pretty damn good.



God even helped me in Diablo 2. He didn't have to. But he did
He taught me the secret of tiger strike and dragon tail

It's a simple combo. Takes no brainer. With upped boots gonna have insane damage ... Not to mention the fricken sockets for facet

It's going to speed things up I suspect.



But it's going to b a while since I can play much again .



I need martial arts skillers. • 4
Martial arts glove
Maras
Fire facet *6
Upped boots
Fire sunder
Infinity


And since my gsmeplay depends on tiger charges ,it's good to have bartucs for the attack rating. It's also important to level up burst of speed to the point where u do hit the max ias so u can get the charges faster



The speed of the kick is determined I guess by the average speed of both weapons.

The sore circle within


There seems to be a spectrum between good and evil.


Some people are more evil than others.






We all need light.

True light

Few hours to my bday
Feel incredibly sad and shutty




Feel like I fail god all the time.


If it's happening all the time is it even a thing anymore.








Coz I was doing the other thing vp and it was like everyday every moment I was doing it at some point I accepted it as part of my life and I made peace with it. And god helped me around it.
He helped me thru it.


Now the issue is that one thing also affects my other thing which is precisely where the issue is. That one thing.



The indulgent spirit.



Imagine turning - - and still not being able to properly control that.





Control?
Human?


We all do what humans do.


That's the sad unfortunate truth is that humans err.


We are in mighty need of a savior.


Unless he died we would be damned.






Without him I wouldn't stand a chance.



Thank you for your precious blood.

In Jesus name,
Amen



I will fight the good fight

How can I glorify God in my life?

Keep my head down and obey

Be a good son.

Met a soul on my birthday

She told me about the good news



I said yes I'm already in the program.




Why haven't you told her about the real good news?



Something tells me that you might not have it.





The belief is in god . I am not the best representation of god



I'm sorry mother I didn't get a chance to tell you the good news.






My life seems incongruent with the gospel.


Not true.






I look at myself in the mirror and see a failure.

When I look at my badge and uniform I see someone else.





A shell. Not me. That person is doing ok on the outside.



On the inside I am always fighting myself it seems. I am chronically against myself. A double minded man I think.



I wanted to be better. I think I tried to shake off these adolescent habits for the past fifteen years or so.



I didn't win.


Seems like I'm going around in circles. Good thing I got the blood of Jesus though.



I'm safe.



I've always been safe.


Thank god.

In Jesus name
Amen




Part 2 - sex circle and creation

Sex is something that follows the Christian

He is born from sex

He creates through sex.



We know for sure that sex leads to creation.
We see so many others, they were all born of sex.


Every human you see is a result of sex.


Men and women .



It's that magnetism that draws the two cleaving parts together.


Snaps together like a button.



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And sex. As a Christian we can't think about sex but you can have multiple children. Meaning that sex was meant to be done more then once.


To populate.to multiply and be fruitful. The first commandment.




Get sexy!


No? Yes. God created sex.



Something about sex and the censorship of sex.





Something about how everything revolves around sex but at the same time we create vacuums of sexlessness.





To cover and to uncover.
Sex is the secret part that we all participate in secretly.


But if everyone is in on a secret, what is that phenomenon called?


A trend.

This post was edited by redExorcist on Jan 15 2023 03:45am