Welcome all.
This is a safe space for people who have been trolled by Terps to talk about their feelings, their experiences, and their goals for recovery.
I can't even begin to imagine what you're feeling right now (since my emotional fortitude is completely and utterly beyond the primitive slings and arrows of random internet users).
Luckily, however, there are numerous others who have suffered through exactly what you're going through right now, including ben-davis, JeremyFisher, xoxocrazi, and many, many others. You don't need to be alone in this struggle.