Tank you all for the replies, i really appreciate it!
Quote (EndlessSky @ Aug 17 2019 02:22am)
And business is good.
Damn that blows. Its a shame you're working together directly. Might help to get some distance cause it sounds like you're in deep.
I don't see how... i have to quit my well payed job in a place where i have worked for years, building a steady position. But even if that wasn't the case, i don't really want to distance myself from her. Despite all the pain my feelings are causing me, i want to be as close to her as possible, because i truly believe that i'll never meet another girl like her for the rest of my life... so i can't run away, even if i end up with a broken heart.
Quote (SaphirexX @ Aug 17 2019 06:11am)
First of all I'd like to say that your English is great. The easiest way to do it is to just stop her at some point when you're talking and be like "Hey, you wanna hang out sometime? There's this ____ that I've really wanted to check out. You should come." Fill in the blank with something of mutual interest. Band/arcade/lan center/museum/whatever it is you guys have in common and would be entertaining to both of you. You should be able to gauge her reaction from being put on the spot from something like that and go from there. If she agrees you can have a couple of "meetings" like that and if your interest level is still there you can pursue something higher.
Yes, i kinda did that actually, it was a few weeks ago. You see, she doesn't know anyone outside of work, so i'm probably her closest "friend/person" in the entire city. As a result she doesn't go out, her schedule is pretty much - work -> grocery shopping -> home -> repeat... she admitted it. So i said to her "Come on, you can't do this all summer, you're in a new place, make the best of it while you're here, you can count on me to show you your way around town"... something along those lines... her answer was "maybe sometimes". Well, nothing since then. Now... there's an upcoming event in mid september, that i believe she'd love to go to, so i might casually invite her when that date approaches. I'll even buy the tickets in advance and then pretend it was a last moment purchase or something, after she gives me her answer of course. But what will happen then, only God knows... if she refuses, it will be like a dagger in the heart... if she agrees, i still might be too afraid to make a move and share my feelings... i probably shouldn't do it in our first "date undercover" anyway, but on the other hand, that date might be our only one, before she leaves in october. So once again, lot's of questions with no answers. You see what i mean? If i wasn't that crazy in love, i would've known what to do, but now i have doubts and question every possible decision i have to make.
Quote (icecool @ Aug 17 2019 06:01pm)
Hi, I remember reading your post short after publication, and it is not easy to write anything that could be potentially helpful. My best advice would be to continue spending time together, talking, without thinking too much about things that may be true or not (I would find it very hard to try conclude something about these personality traits that you mentioned, without being medicine or psychology specialist). She may be undecided to ask about you due to being unsure whether something would not be too private question. I know that it is easy to say, but maybe would be better to don't think in terms of love, before getting to know someone better (I didn't find information in text about how long you know her already). You also asked about being rejected after inviting to date, and my answer here would be that meeting after work does not need to be called as date, it can be just going out to spend time doing something, depending on someone interests, it may be theater, cinema, concert. I will check your topic for updates and write again if I can add anything helpful. Wishing you good luck:)
You're right about all those things, but i just can't help it. I'm not a master in psychology, but it doesn't take a genius to know when someone has issues. I'm pretty sure she's lonely, like i said she doesn't go out, all she has is her at work interactions and her world online. One might think that this helps my case, as i can really fill the gap in her life... yet she doesn't show any signs of affection towards me. Maybe she lives in denial, believing that she doesn't need anyone. I know because i was the same i few years ago... i turned my back on the entire world, thinking that i don't need anything and anyone. All that led to me ruining a few good years of my youth that could've been great and memorable, but i felt a victim of depression. Add to that her shyness and it's pretty obvious that this girl lacks real social interactions. She was difficult to talk too the first couple of days after she arrived. After these first few days she became more relaxed when talking to me, but it was me who broke the ice wall. Now, almost 3 months later, she's completely relaxed and even admitted how hard it was to gain confidence at the start... i love that she did that btw, like i said, she's just real, she doesn't pretend to be something she's not. And yet, even though there's no wall between us now, she seems so out of reach.
About her sexuality... Ok, there's no way to know, but my suspicion lies on something she said. I'm not gonna quote her, because there's still 1% chance that she might find this topic one day... after all she's a Diablo player, don't forget that. But about what she said... it sounded like a joke and if it really was a joke, then everything is 100% fine... but if she was serious about it, then there's 50% chance that she's asexual. I wonder if my reaction to "the joke" gave her a clue about my feelings, i went completely dark and silent that day, but she never asked if there's something wrong and that made it even more painful for me.
Not thinking in terms of love before i get to know her better? But how? I didn't choose for this to happen to me... it just happened and it's the first time i feel this crazy about a girl, so i'm completely unprepared and i don't know how to deal with it. There's no written rules about love, i realize that now. Just because i don't know her for years, or i'm not in a relationship with her, it doesn't mean that i can't love her... because i totally do and i believe that she's the ONE... the only one i ever wanted and the one i've searched for my entire life without knowing it. Besides, it feels like i already know so much about her personality wise, she truly is an angel in my eyes. What can i possibly do to counter these feelings? Do i even want to counter them? I don't know... All i know is that i didn't chose to feel this way... it's both beautiful, devastating and it's killing me slowly... but it happened and i have to deal with it.
This post was edited by KillingIsMyBusiness on Aug 19 2019 02:34pm