Quote (kai_jph @ Oct 17 2018 04:28pm)
This.
There are way better fish in the sea
Clearly you've never fallen in love. There's no rationale behind it, don't even try and make sense of it because you will fail. And if you believe you succeeded, then you failed way harder than anyone else ever could.
@OP I've been in a similar situation where a gal showed a rather peculiar amount of interest that at some point I read as more than friendship. When I sported the idea of asking her out (which I then did) she sort of panicked and jumped back and forth between a whole wide array of arguments. I think I distinguished about 35-40 different arguments as to why she did not want to date me, but most of them are contradicting and I've caught her lying about some other arguments as well. All the while, she explicitly and implicitly repeated her wanting to spend time with me and having an interest in me "that she doesn't yet understand".
This isn't malice, this is immaturity.
Your gal sounds a lot like this as well; she makes all sorts of idiotic, inexplicable moves because she doesn't have a proper response to what she's experiencing. You know that, otherwise you would not have posted here on d2jsp. Your best chance imo is to not follow her around like a puppy, although I know full well that's asking for the impossible. If she then reels you back in you have a choice between exposing yourself to getting hurt by her again or by letting the chance of being with her slip away. I chose the latter for myself, but I can't promise that it'll work for you
Oh, and do talk to your close friends about this. I had a few mates that I opened up to about this, mostly because they blackmailed me to do so or because I knew they'd figure it out (I have a tendency to align myself with people who have awesome observational skills..) but I don't regret any of those conversations. It helps if you combine it with proper whisky.
(As for my story, she's still texting me 3-4 times a week, claiming "she only has an intellectual interest in me", while most of her texts are about personal shit that I ignore. I still answer her study-related questions because, well, I'm a fool. I'm at the brink of something new with somebody else anyway, but it's nothing, not even close, to what I felt for the troublemaker. Alas, not everyone ends up with "the special one" and will have to settle for just somebody extraordinary instead
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