In love with a lesbian,
this is going to be a short story just to get a proper explanation across
A few years ago I was looking to move to a new area I found these two lesbians that had recently been married and one of them bought a house, I got extremely close with one of them we literally would wake up and the first thing we do is meet up , we spend more time together than she does with her wife they seem to have literally no chemistry other than being from the same place and speaking the same language, I never see really any affection they act more like cousins maybe here and there some pecks on the lips and some hand grabbing but nothing like I'm used to seeing with any other relationship gay or straight. we spend right up to her going to sleep talking or playing video games, we flirt often but that’s with any friendship (I believe )she’s always offering me things before her wife when we’re all in the same room, almost anytime we go out she’s trying to pay for me rather than just splitting the bill or letting me get it that time. We consider each other best friends we can finish each other’s sentences, I can just give her a look and she knows exactly what I'm saying and vice a versa. we agree on everything. In 31 years I've never clicked with anyone like that, perfect sync we can have an entire conversation just with our eyes.. So after about a year of this I started to catch hard feelings not that I wanted to I wish I never had them at all but that can't exactly be controlled …. I attempted to back off and stop hanging out in hopes that those feelings might go away and we can go back to being friends and I would look at her as just friends this was about a year of that and it didn't work we started hanging out back to normal and now we are even closer than before and it’s just starting to hurt more and more each day, I don't know how to go about resolving that situation obviously confession would be a terrible idea any one dealt with a similar situation what did you do how long has it been and did everything eventually work out?
I doubt I will get anything of substances from here but considering I already typed up the story for another forum I might as well post it here at the least some people can laugh at my misery lol.