So I met this girl a little more then a month ago, I've known her for around 8 years before but we havn't exactly been talking for the past 6.
Anyway, we meet up for drinks and we immediately feel a connection, so we kiss and hold hands etc, this is the day before christmas.
We continue to meet almost every day and just hang out and well, do it. Come new years she asks me to get into an official relationship, and I say yes - although I was a bit afraid we where going to fast, but didn't mention it.
About a week passes, and I find out she doesn't take any birth control whatsoever, and her period is late - I freak the fuck out but she seems calm(she had mentioned earlier that she wanted to get a kid pretty soon) which freaks me out even more.
A week passes, unsteady but her period comes(Fk yeah!) and everything seems to be all good again except here's the part where she becomes more and more distant. She shows barely any affection at all, only time she does is when she notices I'm in a bad mood and wants to find out if it's because of her.
During this time she has also been kinda down because she's a horse owner, and her horse was sick and wouldn't get better so she had decided to let it move on, only thing is that she couldn't afford the ~600$ it costs to make it happen, so I offer to put out the money and she could work the depth off.
The horse was "handled" 3 days ago, I was there along with her and her friend, overall it went ok but ofcourse she was devastated for the moment. After this I've just been trying to give her space, we usually hang out on weekends(although last 2 weekends we´ve only seen each other for like 1 day since she planned other things to do) and this weekend she wanted to be alone, except for a dinner we're having with some friends this Saturday.
I have taken up the topic about her being cold and distant a few times, and it always turns into an argument where she tries to justify her way of treating me by reasons like her horse, that she was worried about pregnancy etc. and she promised me that after all this horse stuff has calmed down and she starts to feel better again things will be back to normal.
She has also said that she wouldn´t be together with me if she didn't want to, which I believe because she's a very straight and honest person. Every argument we've had has always ended with her telling me she does like me and that she knows she doesn't say it as much because she has a hard time displaying her feelings(something that didn't seem to be a problem at all at the beginning of all this).
I know it's only been 3 days since all this horse stuff happened, and that our relatonship has barely even begun, but I still need some opinions on this shit.
Am I being paranoid?
Am I being used?
If there are any questions or more information you need, don't hesitate to ask.
Not even sure why I'm posting here but fuck I just need to vent.