What happened to that 'I am getting help this week if it kills me' type of Ben that was here a few weeks ago?

December was a write off.

Decided to do a month off drinking and drugs and stick to it. Currently 2 weeks without anything.

Gym has been really good. I’m also over the depressed breakup stage. Been seeing a few girls here and there but nothing special.

I challenge you to do Febuary too... It's the shortest month of the year!

Glad shit's going well mate.

So I’ve drank twice this year and sone drugs once. It’s not perfect but it’s a LOT better than every single weekend.

I think being summer I’m actually enjoying being outside in the sun, at the beach etc. I’ve also found my love for the gym again. Feeling healthy and happy(ish)

Your Facebook still makes me jealous.

So weird you just commented on this.

I literally JUST (1 minute ago) finished reading over the entire blog. It’s actually really hard for me to read. I feel I’m in a better place than I was 2 years ago but am still not where I want to be.

You have to look at where you are vs where you were and appreciate that with effort comes results. Much like the gym. Also, I'm always around 😂 lurking

February was a blow out. 3 out of 4 weekends on drugs and alcohol

Doing another month (or more) sober.

Have been seeing a few girls. There is one I like but not sure if I want to be in a relationship again. Just going to see how it goes

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Thank you my friend.

Thought I’d do a little update as I’ve sunk into some bad habits again. A few people have sent PM’s over the last 2 years asking how I am etc.

I bought a new house and sold my other. This one is a lot nicer and closer to the beach. I am happy to be rid of some of the memories attached to the old house.

I’ve seen many people but only had one girlfriend since the last update. She was horrible.
She was manipulative, controlling, physically violent and threatened suicide multiple times when I tried to break it off. This was a huge learning curve for me and I took away that I should never settle for less than my own worth. Also to never put anyone else’s happiness before my own.

Since her I started seeing a dating a girl. This girl was the first in my life to tick all the boxes. Every, single, one. Unfortunately she lives ~3 hours away. We quickly discovered that it was too hard at the current time with both our busy schedules. ‘Perfect person, wrong timing’.

Since then I have been living the bachelor life to the fullest extent. With that comes the partying. With the partying comes the drinking and drugs. Although I am much happier and healthier than I was 2 years ago I still find it difficult to stray away from that scene and what comes with it. I often wonder if I have a problem.

Overall life is probably a 6/10. I am doing….okay.