Still annoyed at myself after last night. I made sure to get out of bed and go to the gym, so some chores and go to the beach.

Hung out with another new girl for the 3rd time. She’s super into me but not sure how much I want to go into it.

A week off work will do me well and let me relax

Met up with same girl and she started telling me all about her anxiety and depression and weird relationship with her ex. Pretty much can’t be bothered dealing with this so I’ll cut her off tomorrow

Otherwise went to the gym, beach and ate really well. Nothing exciting today

Today was super boring. It’s summer here but was rainy / windy all day so I didn’t go to the beach.

Basically gym, saw family and ate a lot / meal prepped since most of my friends have Monday - Friday jobs

Went to dinner and a few drinks at a friends house. Dinner was sweet and we played some beer pong.

Ended up going home, getting changed and going out to meet with other friends in a club. Took some more stuff, went back to an after party and did a lot more

It’s 6:37am now and I’m home. I don’t feel bad because I had an awesome night. I’m beginning to think my past ramblings were just because I was coming down so badly. I don’t have any regrets from last night.

Haven’t posted in a while.

Basically I’ve been doing drugs again but a lot less quantity. Seeing multiple girls who are all pretty cool - not looking for a relationship though.

Working and gyming like normal.

Got some bad news regarding my ex and the house we bought together so that’s going to be another headache.

I’m enjoying being single a lot. I’ve found more time for myself and my friends + family.

Still doing drugs but a lot less frequently and quantity. Not sure if I should be concerned but I’m still doing stuff the days after instead of being bed ridden.

Seeing multiple girls, I’ve taken a few on proper dates and really liked one but don’t think anything will eventuate.

Gym has been going well.

Second property is still being sorted with ex annoyingly.

I’ve grown a bit of a beard for the first time in my life and I’ve had no negative feedback.

Life isn’t so bad.

Had a huge weekend last weekend for a friends birthday... spent like $1200-$1500...

Came down hard until Wednesday. Didn’t go back to the gym until Friday and lost 4.5kg.

Today is Saturday and my friends are all meeting up and going out again. I feel I need to completely avoid them to avoid my own temptations.

Finished work at 2pm Saturday, had a few missed calls from friends so rang them back. By 3pm I was on a pub crawl drinking bulk drinks and taking drugs. I met new people, I got 3 girls numbers, I enjoyed myself, I spent $500+ dollars, I didn’t end up sleeping from 4:55am Saturday (when I went to work) until now (10pm Sunday). I still went to the gym even though I hadn’t been to bed.

I don’t even know what to think.

Woke up at 5am for work Friday, finished work at 2pm Friday, went to the gym and had dinner.

Went to a friends house to watch footy, ended up drinking and doing drugs...didn’t go to bed and went to work on Saturday. Finished work on Saturday and went to a music festival where I did a lot more drinking and a lot more drugs. Didn’t sleep until 1pm Sunday....

Basically slept for like 45 hours over the last 3 days. Ate like shit and am generally feeling bad about myself again. I think it depends which drugs I take that make me feel regret.

I did manage to go to the gym today...

See how I feel tomorrow...