Ouch, sorry for your loss, I double checked all your toons and realized you had already deleted it (since you have 15 HC toons left). I went through all my loses... you can tell from my toon names from iz1 to iz8 how many died, and also the fact that I now have 2 SC toons to make up the 16 max.
You have the gear to carry on, the loss of what you had is just pixels... take time off, and I get the "wtf, everyone ran off?" ... "how", "why" etc.
Time off, even if it is a year.