I'm definitely a person that has fallen away from God, but I have also recently started my journey seeking Him again. There are a lot of things that I'm currently working on changing in my life and for the right reasons. I want to be a great role model for my son and also a loving husband to my wife. I know we all fight these battles of who we want to be and who we really are at the time... it's tough to change. I know that as I get rid of bad habits I must fill the void with God, because if I don't something else will replace the void and ultimately nothing else will be able to fill that void except for God.
I'm glad this sub-section is here on jsp. In the midst of havoc on this site, there is light that shines and I'm glad to see that a community exist with God on their heart. As I have explored jsp over the years, I have truly come to realize how in trouble we are as humans. How desperate we are for attention and how we bite at any hook that feeds the flesh. It's not an easy life we live, Satan is here to pull us back to the flesh in anyway that he can. Sometimes through the closet people we know (friends and family).
I just pray that as we continue to go through our lives, that we focus on what is important. There is more ahead than we can comprehend (eternal life), but the scary part is that God is watching. He is always watching and He will be our Judge. I know sometimes we may like to think that God will be easy on us when our judgement comes, but the real truth is that He will be fair and just. Please focus on your heart on God. Understand what His Son went through for us so that we may have eternal life.
There is a spiritual war going on 24.7.365 and it's easy to forget about when we go through our daily lives. Work, family events, traveling the world - all of these things can be very rewarding, but they don't matter in the end. Enjoy these things, but don't lose track of God.
The best part about all of this is that we have the opportunity everyday to spread God's word. This doesn't have to be directly talking about God to someone, but in everything we do we show where are beliefs are rooted. Our actions, our words (kindness in our words), our understanding of one another, our compassion, etc. When we strive to live that life, we are bound to catch someone's attention and make them question things about their own life. We may not realize it or not, but we are under a microscope by people. For instance, at work, I am involved with a very blue collar industry. I've met many great people, many smart people, many people that have crude humor that I don't always agree with. In the end it's my choice on how I want to act around these individuals. I can either chose to participate in the crowd and be a clown or set away and find something more productive to do. These individuals may decide that they don't like me because of the actions I take or the choosing not to use foul language, but one day when they have a struggle, they will know who to come to and as people with Faith in God - we can help. We can help give guidance when the receiving ends ears are open.
Anyhow, more of a diary thing that I'm working on. I'm going through some counseling myself (so I'm definitely not preaching nor do I think I'm perfect). I just know that I need to focus on reality, I never know when my last day will be and I know that I want to know a God that cares about me more than I care about myself. A God that wants us to be swept in His Grace and Love so bad that He gave His own Son for us. I don't ever think I could do that with my son.
Well, have a goodnight. Remember to say a prayer, even if you feel that no cares, God does. Be sincere and God Bless.