Quote (HoldOn @ Jun 12 2012 12:20am)
(I'm 15, and I know everything you are going to say about me being too young to find everything out, but w/e)
So I've had a crush for this girl for some time now. We got a little closer and I got to enjoy her oh so much more. I don't really know if she feels the same, but it doesn't really matter. Now, since school is ending in 2 weeks, I had thought of telling her like really really soon so I don't let her go like every other girl before without letting her know I ''love'' her. That was all planned out, I was sure I knew what needed to be known about her before asking her out.
Now I've had a talk with a very good friend of mine, who used to be really close to her for some time, and I've heard things... Too much. And I always feel like I'm always learning too much about everything. The girl just didn't look anyhow the same to me, and I don't know if I'll be able to look at her the same way. Guess it amused me to think that she was just an innocent little girl. Now, no way I can think of her that way. Now I'm starting to wonder: Is everyone like that? Does everyone have very bad sides that they hide from people?
I'm wondering if it's worth going for her even though I know so much, or if everyone is just like that and I'll end up being deceived every time...
I had a crush on a really nice girl in my chemistry class for about a year
I got badly friendzoned and learned alot (Hurtful shit about her being one hell of a slut. I was kind of being destroyed from withing, but after 6 more months of talking less to her I got totally over it and even had my first gf for 3 months)
She doesn't even care if I touch her pussy (with clothes) or her tits in class while the teacher isnt watching, and we tend to cuddle a lot now. I can pretty much do whatever the fuck I want, just not bang her. ( I am still working at it. Or... again working at it. )
However since I don't wanna get dragged away too far from your problem: yes it really bothered me finding out this dark side about her. I literally cried, daydreaming about her while seeing a porn, since it was some gross stuff about fucking weird guys she told me. (yeah this sounds super awkward, I know)
And I got torn apart, and even now she loves to play with my heart. But the one time I told her I couldn't be friends with her anymore because she is a weird freak, I just couldn't stop myself from becoming friends with her again. I can't live with her but neither can I do so without her. I am just crazy about her.
But I try to distract myself by talking to more and more other females. It works so far.
I actually do believe anyone has got a somewhat dark side which might bug you, but you should really learn how to deal with it. Whatever makes you happy man, do it. You are the man, don't be a pussy like me and just stand strong.