Quote (turtol @ Aug 20 2011 11:23pm)
i've quit 3 times, it's also a dependance... i quit for 2 months, just starting up again 3 days ago, i can't focus i can't remember fuck all without them, they clear my mind... seriously, those 2 months at work i've fucked up over 100 orders, forgot where basic shit was etc.... i do want to, but i can't.
No shit. If quitting were easy there wouldn't be a multi billion dollar market for products to help you quit.
You make the choice to continue smoking. If you think a few months of discomfort even fucking up at work isn't worth years of your life then thats your issue. I'd gladly get fired and go through withdrawals for months to greatly reduce my risk of getting cancer.
If someone offered you a million dollars to quit smoking you'd do it without a problem.
If someone said they were going to shoot you in the head if you smoked another cigarette and you believed them you'd never do it again.
You're unmotivated because you can't truly perceive the consequences of your actions.